I just need to forewarn you of yet another serious post, but it has just really been on my heart for a few weeks now...
As I think about how much I love the family that I call Keystone, I cannot help but see how much pain and heartache passes through the doors of the church any given weekend. While I know pain in life is expected, and I praise Him in those times because Paul tells us God's power is the strongest while we are at our weakness. (I have personally experienced this in an amazing way!) But what is pulling at the strings of my heart is how sometimes when I am at church I am all smiles and "make my rounds" to say hello with a quick hug. As I sit here and blog, I am so sad to know that I have missed an opportunity to show God's love to people who needed it. I get so rushed and scurry about (Jimmy in tow!) I do not slow down enough to REALLY ask how someone was doing... to really focus on how I can encourage them. My heart has been sick while I think that I did not allow someone the time to really answer my question of, "How are you doing?"
Interestingly enough, my devotion the other day was about Christ telling us to not dwell on the past, however focus on today. I think God is shining his grace on me at this very moment to allow me the opportunity to learn more of what my mission is for Him. I believe that God has absolutely set my heart on fire with a passion. Although, I am not even sure what to word is for this yet... maybe significance? But I do know the point. God does not want anyone to come into His house and leave without knowing of Him and everything He is...His grace...His compassion...His desire to call you His child and comfort you when you hurt. God encourages us to gather in fellowship with one another for so many reasons, but one is to care for each other. To encourage each other. To comfort each other in times of grief as He has comforted us. (I can literally feel the Holy Spirit screaming those words in the deepest part of who I am.)
I sit here and think of how many wonderful friendships I have developed at Keystone. Selfishly, I have thought that God has blessed me with these friends just, well...for just ME! But tonight God has shown me there is more to why I have the friends that I have. Most of my closest friends have such a strong walk, and faith that cannot be rivaled. They have openly shared their stories of heartache and times they have had in the Valley of the Shadow. And as I sit here God is showing me how through my wonderful, wonderful job at Keystone, along with the gifts that He has given me...how important it is to connect people who are in whatever valley they are going through at the time, to those who are singing praises at the tops of the mountain over looking similar circumstances God has seen them through.
I know there are people in place at Keystone that are already doing this...I immediately think of Jan Franke (Love you, Jan!). Jan knew of tremendous heartache I had, and literally took my hand and led me to someone who could possibly help...or simply encourage me, if nothing else! I know God had this profound moment for me for several reasons, one of which is to help me understand and to experience (taste and see!) what God wants me to do for Him.
God is just so amazing...I have no more words...just humbled, thankful and excited. My heart has just been overwhelmed with sorrow the past few days hurting for those who hurt in our church. But in the sadness, God is near (!) and is beginning to define what He has planned for me. Amen!!